The last year and a half of my life has been a little… odd. There was the moving, the new housing, the changing everything about my life thing. And I have to tell you, it took its toll. Like many writers, I battle occasional bouts of depression and since I’m a ‘good girl’ type, I tend to make them worse by deciding not only have I failed myself, I have failed all those around me, who will clearly never love me again. I’m sure that sounds familiar to those of you who deal with the same battles with inner voices that get so loud and so ugly and so mean.
At the beginning of the year, in the midst of a very dark period, I picked up THE HAPPINESS PROJECT by Gretchen Rubin. It was for our bookclub and I wanted to read it to get advice on how to pull myself out of an ever-spiraling and very painful period in my life. I’m happy to say that the book, as well as lots of support from my friends and family and some serious soul searching, really did help. Slowly but surely, I’ve gotten myself to a much happier place, though this is always going to be a battle that I fight.
So what does that have to do with any of you or with zombies or monsters or anything at all here? Well, I’ve been thinking lately about how lucky I am. I am lucky to have people who love me in my ‘real person life’, but also so many awesome readers. You don’t know how helpful a random message saying you loved a book or can’t wait for my next piece can be. Kindness is like a drop in a pond, it ripples out so that even the smallest thing eventually makes waves.
I’m lucky to still be able to write the books I want to write, thanks to Pocket and my awesome editor there, Adam and my terrific agent, Miriam. For a while, I thought I would have to put my urban fantasy self away, so this one means a LOT to me. I hope you guys will enjoy all my new visions in the monster books coming from Pocket in 2013 and any new ideas in the future beyond those.
I’m lucky to be able to support my family on my salary and that has DIRECT impact from all of you who buy my books under any of my names and help pay for my roof and food and even the occasional fun excursion. Many writers can’t do it, so I appreciate it every day.
So as I count my blessings, know that I always count you all. So, you know… thanks and stuff. Now back to your regularly schedule snark.